Tuesday, October 13, 2009

Letters to ED


Here you can write a letter to ED. Tell Ed off. Tell it to go away. Tell it anything you want. This exercise will help you to gain independence from your disorder.
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5 comments:

  1. La Bonne MaisonOctober 13, 2009 at 7:50 PM

    Dear Ed;
    Its been a short period of time that I’ve known you, but it has definitely long enough! You have done nothing but made my life a living hell! Its finally time for me to say goodbye forever! In the beginning I believed that you were my best friend. The only one who truly loved and cared for me! However I have come to the realization that a true friend doesn’t isolate you from the world! A true friend doesn’t make you a slave to a toilet! I got so wrapped up in you and your manipulation that I totally lost sight of who I truly was! I didn’t know how to how fun! I had numbed my feeling so much that I didn’t know how to feel or handle my emotions! You made me hate my life and want to die every single day! That way of living has come to an end! I will never go back! Every day you try to sneak your way back into my life! But never again will I let you interfere! You will no longer be my constant comfort! Every day I will put you in your place, and that is definitely far away from me! I am living life to the fullest for the first time, and there is no room for you in it! I am not defined by a number on the scale or the size of my genes! I am beautiful the way I am, and you will never be able to convince differently! So here it goes! I am saying goodbye to you one final time! The journey to separate myself from you has been a long and bumpy road, but the outcome is going to be worth! I will never put limits on myself ever again! I love myself for who I am and you’re going to have to deal with it forever!

    Bye Bitch
    ~ anonymous

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  2. AnonymousOctober 14, 2009 at 4:46 PM

    ear ED,
    I used to think I was you and you were me. I did not know I was different than you. I always thought your thoughts and ideas and rules were my own. Until I was ready to get into recovery I was not able to separate the two of us. Once I started to separate from you, you started to really grab hold and you got really pissed. You screamed at me and at times still do. Your rules and perceptions had a hold on me. The more I work at distinguishing between us, the stronger I become. The more times I listen to my own voice instead of yours the happier and more confident I am.

    Your control over me is slipping and I know how angry it makes you. You try so hard to hold the control, but I need to live my life with passion, for when I only listen to you, I live a life of fear. This fear keeps me trapped and wrapped up in your power. This fear keeps me sick in my disorder. I forget my voice and give in to you. Although I am not far long in my recovery, I am really starting to listen to my voice and make my own decisions. I have passion once again and I have hope. Hope is the driving force behind my recovery. I gave into you so many times and became hopeless. I am done being hopeless and helpless. I am tired of being the victim. I am ready to become my own person. I am already discovering the things I love to do and they do not involve you as they once did.

    You are with me everyday, but the only control I have is how much I listen to you and how loud I allow your voice to be. My voice is getting louder and stronger every day. I like the person I am becoming. All the lies you told me are unraveling. And although I may never be totally rid of you, only I can decide what to do when I hear you whispering, talking, or screaming at me. And the more I choose my voice over yours, I win; again and again I win.

    Jennafur

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  3. AnonymousOctober 28, 2009 at 9:27 AM

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  4. parkerOctober 28, 2009 at 11:01 AM

    Dear Anonymous,

    There is hope....Don't give up! If you need to talk call me at 800-824-8580.

    We can help you,
    Hp[e,

    Lisa Hatten

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  5. AnonymousOctober 29, 2009 at 12:30 PM

    I hate you and you are ruining my life, my body and my teeth. I now have a baby girl and want nothing more to get better and do know how but I am very ashamed and scared because I should have gotten over this years ago. I need to stop keeping these secrets from my husband who is my best friend. i don't want to die young or suffer from complications of a life long eating disorder. I am scared of being seperated from my daughter and husband. Please help. What if there was a surgery that would make it impossible to throw up.

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